The Vanished Instant

RIP: Nicol Williamson

2012-01-26T22:19:00.000-08:00

Nicol Williamson, an actor of tremendous power and originality, and a wonderful maverick spirit, died in Amsterdam on December 16. The announcement was made only yesterday.

Here he is playing Merlin's farewell scene in the movie Excalibur (I couldn't embed it, so click on the link instead). I love this film, perhaps beyond all reason, and Williamson's performance as Merlin sits at the film's very centre.

For full (and dare I say, almost amusing) obituaries go here and here.

The LA Times leads with this anecdote:

Once heralded as the greatest British actor of his generation, Nicol Williamson was also a legend for stormy onstage behavior that included calling off a performance of "Hamlet" mid-speech because he was too tired to go on.

"I'll pay for the seats," he later recalled telling the audience in 1969, "but I won't shortchange you by not giving my best." And then he walked off.

The NY Times has him as 'mercurial,' which I always take to infer as someone who defies rules and categorization, someone who won't be held accountable. Someone admirable, then.

What I've Been Reading: Hemingway's Boat - Everything He Loved and Lost 1934-61

2012-01-24T12:38:00.000-08:00

I find it somewhat shocking to note that I haven't read a book by or about Hemingway in twenty years. For one thing, I'm staggered to find myself old enough to have not read any Hemingway for such a period of time. So it goes. I'm on my way to being an old man in search of the sea.

Hemingway is definitely one of those writers you should read when you're young, so I'm glad I got that much right at least. He's also tough one to go back to. The style is so easily absorbed that re-reading Hemingway sometimes gives you the sense of reading parody, even when it's the good stuff. I feel similarly about re-reading Garcia Marquez - no matter how much I was in thrall to Love in the Time of Cholera the first time around, the prose style is so rich and distinctive that I have a hard time going back for seconds and thirds.

Credit Paul Hendrickson's book, then, with inspiring me to take Hemingway down from the shelf once more. 'Hemingway's Boat' is by no means a perfect book - the title isn't fully justified by the content, for one thing - but it's frequently beautiful and touching, a highly idiosyncratic look at an extraordinary man, at the devastating ripple effects of the Hemingway mythology, and also, at the very real curse of mental illness visited upon the Hemingway family.

It's a beautifully written and deeply felt book. It's the work of an investigative journalist for sure - the research goes deep, so much so that there's almost a sense of the reporter becoming overly enamored of all that he turns up. We're taken on lengthy, chapter long detours with seemingly minor eye-witnesses, for example, but the book's beauty is in part a result of its meandering path. It isn't intended as a full-on biography.

Much of the book's first half is taken up with the first couple of summers Hemingway spent on his boat, Pilar - meaning, half the book takes place 1934-6. The last quarter of the book takes up the story of Hemingway's progeny - most notably Gregory, who led a pitiable, tortured life, dying at age 70 in a Florida jail (he'd been arrested for flaunting his almost nude transgendered body along the side of a state highway).

A good deal is made here, as well as in numerous biographies, of Hemingway's personality and talent being swallowed and distorted by fame. It's inarguable, of course, that this is the case, and yet it occurs to me that for a man who was hungry for fame and adulation, he certainly didn't inhabit the usual avenues in pursuit of such false glories. He never lived in New York or Los Angeles, for example. You'd be hard-pressed to come up with three less likely outposts of fame and glory than the three places he called home in the second half of his life - Key West (Florida), Havana (Cuba), and Ketchum (Idaho).

So, what's my favourite Hemingway, you ask?

I think A Farewell To Arms is his greatest achievement as a novelist, the moment when innovation and refinement came most perfectly together.

And I loved For Whom The Bell Tolls.

The Sun Also Rises? I know it's most people's favourite, but it isn't mine. I like it fine, as Ernest might say, but to my mind it's neither his best, nor the most enjoyable.

New Year's Day

2012-01-23T15:57:00.000-08:00

On New Year's Day, out walking in southern-most Austin, along a concealed path, in an obscure part of a park, we stumbled upon a group of friends and family playing softball. Nothing too unusual about that, perhaps.. except that the voices of these people were all decidedly non-American. Indeed, the friendly voices calling out belonged exclusively to Scots and to northern Englishman. Given the context - Scotland vs England, off the beaten-path in Texas on a sunny, warm, New Year's Day - it was about as unlikely a scene as I can imagine stumbling upon.

i-kids

2012-01-22T13:59:00.000-08:00

East Austin, TX

Muhammad Ali - 70 today.

2012-01-17T13:58:00.000-08:00

On the occasion of Muhammad Ali's 70th birthday... you'll read a lot of sports journalism before you come upon anything as good as this prophetic piece by Mark Kram:
http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/2012/mma/boxing/01/16/muhammad-ali-70th-kram/index.html?eref=sihp&sct=hp_t11_a2

Photographer Unknown

Beginnings: Lucy's Fried Chicken

2012-01-16T17:06:00.000-08:00

As I mentioned in a previous post, I recently shot a bunch of PR and website images for Lucy's Fried Chicken. Below are a number of images that aren't included on the website, but which nonetheless illustrate some of Lucy's fine flavor... go to www.lucysfriedchicken.com for further images (and more importantly, to get the low-down on the delicious goings-on there).

Opening night...

Chef/owner James Holmes at the jukebox. It plays only Texas-related music.

Lucy's Fried Chicken: Chef/owner James Holmes

2012-01-15T23:06:00.000-08:00

James Holmes, Chef/Owner Lucy's Fried Chicken

This image was taken behind Lucy's Fried Chicken, next to the wood stack that feeds the grill there, and beside the vintage smoker that's used to smoke meats.

The picture was taken at the end of an extended period - at the very least, a full couple of months - when James worked consecutive eighteen hour days without even a sniff of a day off. Now, I know that James wouldn't appreciate reading a sob story as to how hard he worked to open his restaurant, to get it up and running properly, all of that. So let me simply suggest that without doubt, it was a stressful, exhausting time for him - yet also, I'm sure, an intensely rewarding one.

I mention all of this because I believe that you can it, or something of it, right here in the picture. As such, I hope and believe that it works as a good portrait ought to, capturing something of the sitter's inner life at the time it was taken. And while there are other versions of this image too, a little lighter in mood, more smiley (also accurate in their own way), this is the one I'm most fond of.

Hoop Dreams

2012-01-11T16:53:00.000-08:00

i-phone, Beverly Blvd, LA

I used to live in the Beverly Blvd/La Bre Ave neighbourhood of Los Angeles. There's a large community of Hasidic Jews that lives there, and I believe there's a Hasidic school located on Beverly, although I'm not sure. Either way, the building in this image belongs to the Hasidic community, and atop the building is a basketball court. I shot this on my i-phone as I walked away, glancing over my shoulder, with the sun momentarily dropping into the hoop.

Oh, brother...

2012-01-05T10:43:00.000-08:00

Vivian, with words of advice for brother Finn.

In fact, I was shooting images of Finn's and Vivian's cousin James, when this image happened to present itself. A lucky moment, then. I'll post images of James here soon.

Lucy's Fried Chicken - Part 1

2012-01-04T20:44:00.000-08:00

I've been busy shooting images for the Lucy's Fried Chicken website. Here's a sneak preview. The lovely model is Lauren Smith. I'll be posting more Lucy's - related images in the coming days.

For now, check out more of the images (and the menu!) on the Lucy's website: http://lucysfriedchicken.com

More importantly, if you're in Austin, go check out the fried chicken!

Quiet Please.

2012-01-03T22:00:00.000-08:00

'Nothing makes me feel better - calmer, clearer and happier - than being in one place, absorbed in a book, a conversation, a piece of music. It's actually something deeper than mere happiness: it's joy, which the monk David Steindl-Rast describes as "that kind of happiness that doesn't depend on what happens.'"

Pico Iyer, The Joy of Quiet (NY Times, Jan 1 2012)

There is a paradox, I know, in posting a link (click on the text above) to this article, here, in a blog, and then linking it to Facebook. The article - about how technology has impacted our lives, and more specifically, how we are beginning, perhaps, to recognize the need to unplug, get away from it all, at least for moments at a time - is elegantly carried, and well worth reading.
For my part, outside of business-related enterprises, I'm steering clear of Facebook for a while, and looking to monitor my internet use, period (Iyer declares that he doesn't go online until he's finished his writing for the day. Wise man, evidently). The blog...well, this blog is different, at least for me. Whether you should waste your time with it, of course, strikes me as a reasonable question...

This Is How It Feels

2012-01-02T22:34:00.000-08:00

To my great discredit I've lost track of the artist responsible for this (discredit - this is how we start the new year, the first post thereof?). If you know who created it, please let me know.

The Lives They Lived

2011-12-29T10:14:00.000-08:00

Each year at this time, the New York Times Magazine is given over to an issue that celebrates the lives and extraordinary stories of people who passed away over the last year. It's always a compelling issue, and this year's was no exception. There are deeply moving stories told here - not least in the 'These American Lives section curated by Ira Glass. Indeed, practically all of them well worth reading:

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2011/12/22/magazine/the-lives-they-lived.html?scp=1&sq=These%20American%20Lives&st=cse

Christopher Hitchens:

The loss of Christopher Hitchens at 62 is terribly sad. He had the appetite and aptitude of ten men, was the greatest debater of the past decade, and a sparkling orator. His learning, and his recall of all that he read, belies belief. There's plenty to disagree with him on, politically and otherwise, but that's beside the point. He was a remarkably compelling figure who's stature as an intellectual was still growing.
I read Hitchens's memoir this year, around the time that he was diagnosed with cancer of the esophagus, and curiously, didn't enjoy it as much as I had hoped. I'm sure that his collected essays, 'Arguably' is a better book, and a more worthwhile read, based on what I've read of it so far. A few of my thoughts on his memoir can be found in an earlier post, here: http://vanishedinstant.blogspot.com/2010/08/what-im-reading-hitch-22.html

In the days immediately after Hitchens's death, Ian McEwan published a wonderful tribute in The Guardian. It's such a skillful piece, beginning with McEwan use of a children's cancer hospital to tie-in Hitchens's fervent opposition to the idea of God:

http://www.guardian.co.uk/books/2011/dec/16/christopher-hitchens-appreciation-by-ian-mcewan

Hitchens was a man of enormous contradiction, and an interesting piece by Katha Pollitt appeared in The Nation on December 19. Written from a decidedly feminist viewpoint, it's contrarian and worthwhile reading.

http://www.thenation.com/blog/165222/regarding-christopher

As a writer, Hitchens deserves to have the last word - something he clearly intended to do, even as he faced death. Another memoir, 'Mortality,' is already scheduled, and the way Hitchens faced up to his own death is extraordinary by any measure.

http://www.vanityfair.com/culture/2012/01/hitchens-201201

Steve Jobs:

Celebrating a life of great accomplishment isn't necessarily the same thing as hagiography. See Hitchens, above. A friend of mine noted on Facebook soon after Steve Jobs died that he was to some large extent responsible for inhumane pay and work conditions in the Apple factories in China, and as such, shouldn't be celebrated in quite the way he was being honored at that time . Fair enough. But to paraphrase Scott Fitzgerald, the test of a first rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposing ideas and maintain the ability to function - a useful exercise when it comes to evaluating a life.

I found Walter Isaacson's biography of Jobs to be a tremendous accomplishment, particularly given the circumstance. The circumstance was of having only two years to gather a lot of complicated and contradictory information, assemble it in readily digestible form, and then beat the ticking clock on a life, and therefore, on a deadline to publish it. Isaacson managed all of this, and also delivered an account that was balanced, recognizing the talent and/or genius of an individual, without shying away from the many troubling quirks and traits of that individual's personality.

What it amounts to for me is that all lives are marked by asterisks. Jobs is a perfect example of this, much like Picasso, who's art we celebrate and revere while fully aware that he was a misogynistic prick. If we're going to praise only morally sound, righteous writers/ artists/ creative geniuses, the list of those we admire and approve of will be short indeed. That doesn't men disregarding all foibles, but rather, maintaining balance and perspective.

Early Morning, Our House.

2011-12-28T20:32:00.000-08:00

Come to Papa

2011-12-27T20:40:00.000-08:00

It's true that my wife and I scoured our book shelves when trying to come up with a name for our yet-to-be-born son. Hence, when he was born, we named him Miller (and incidentally, he owes more to Arthur than he does to Henry. But either way...).

This week, I've been dipping into a book about Hemingway (more about which in a future post), the first time I've read a book about or by Ernest in many years. Lo-and-behold, I was reminded by this latest book that Papa was christened Ernest Miller Hemingway. When I informed my wife of this fact, she was less than completely amused, subscribing as she does to Zelda's theory that ol' Hem wrote about 'bullfighters, bullslingin' and bullshit.'

Personally, I'm already beginning to see similarities.

The Critic.

2011-12-26T10:02:00.000-08:00

Whether the glass is half full or half empty doesn't strike me as the important question. What I want to know is, what stopped the glass from being properly filled, and now, how do we fill it?

Superman Stops Traffic

2011-10-25T08:31:00.000-07:00

There hasn't been much blog action lately, I know. You're looking at a big part of the reason. The Mrs, is back at work, and I'm playing the role of Stay-At-Home-Dad. Of course, it's a privilege to do so. But it means that for now, there's comparatively little in the way of freelance work going on. Soon, it'll balance itself out...there'll be occasional help at home and we'll get this show on the road. I've a couple of projects that I'm very much looking forward to working on. Stay tuned...

In Dreams Begin Responsibilities

2011-10-14T12:51:00.000-07:00

Food Files: Sticky Fingers

2011-10-08T11:42:00.000-07:00

I know all about Sticky Toffee Pudding. After all, I'm a northern English lad, and the the dish is frequently cited as having originated at a hotel in England's beautiful Lake District, up north. I feel that the claim it only dates back to the 1960's is a bit dubious, but there you go. I should ask my folks, they're likely to know.

At Olivia, here in Austin (https://www.facebook.com/olivia78704), they riff on the Sticky Toffee Pudding in spectacular fashion: Sticky Ginger Cake.

This is one of several food images I shot at Olivia recently...

My father, the cowboy...

2011-09-30T15:59:00.000-07:00

My dad, born Manchester, England, 1932.

Going native, Austin, Texas, 2011.

Just Kids

2011-09-14T14:03:00.000-07:00

Vivian

Finn

Vivian

Last call from the Vivian and Finn session...

Vivian

2011-09-12T10:28:00.000-07:00

Vivian

This is Vivian, Finn's sister (see yesterdays post). If you ask me why I enjoy photographing children, I'd say it's their lack of self-consciousness, their spontaneity. And of course, kids as handsome as Finn and Vivian make me look good too. Spend more than a few minutes with them, hold a camera handy, and you're sure to wind up with a lovely result.

Finn.

2011-09-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

Finn.

Question: Are you available to shoot family portraits, kids, etc?

Answer: Of course! Kids are particularly fun to photograph...

Saint Cecilia

2011-09-08T22:08:00.000-07:00

Saint Cecilia is the patron saint of music and poetry. It's also the name of a beautiful, secluded hotel in Austin. The photograph above depicts the bar of Saint Cecilia - which explains the vintage Rolling Stone cover featuring Texas native Janis Joplin. The property is the jewel in the crown of Liz Lambert, who I enthused about previously here. It's also the hotel in Austin where the real rock stars and musicians stay... Robert Plant was hanging out the night I was there recently. Or am I being indiscreet? Anyway, it's a remarkable place...and more about which later...

My Kind of Guy: Hugh Laurie

2011-09-05T20:07:00.000-07:00

Photographer Unknown - citation requested

I equate happiness with contentment, and contentment with complacency, and complacency with impending disaster.' Hugh Laurie

I've long admired Hugh Laurie, going back to his early career and routines with Stephen Fry. Having read Gavin Edwards' profile of Laurie in the NY Times magazine, I like him even more. Apparently we share similarities in attitude, if not a parity in talent. Certainly I share his philosophy though: happiness = contentment = complacency. I've thought of it in exactly those terms any number of times (though I tend to think of complacency leading to redundancy, rather than 'impending disaster.').

There's something refreshingly real about Laurie's curmudgeonly disposition in this profile. His take on the difference between England and the US is spot on: 'We differ by only 5 percent in almost every field, except when it comes to religion, and then we part company by about 300 percent.' Coming from England, where organized religion is largely invisible in the day-to-day, yet living in Texas, where there are almost as many churches lining the roads as there are pubs lining the streets of England, I can understand this.

I wanted to weep with joy and recognition at his take on the differences between British and US television: 'I think good-looking people seldom make good television... And American television studios almost concede before they start: 'Well, it won't be good, but at least it'll be good-looking. We'll have nice-looking girls in tight shirts with FBI badges and fit-looking guys with lots of hair gel vaulting over things. So at least we'll have achieved that base standard of entertainment. He shook his head. 'I think that's hugely misguided. The glory of American television is Dennis Franz.'

Hugh Laurie: my kind of guy.

Coke Is It.

2011-08-26T09:28:00.000-07:00

Clara Revisited.

2011-08-24T10:08:00.000-07:00

Williamstown, MA

What I'm Reading: Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy

2011-08-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

My 'ambivalence' to Texas (I'm being charitable) since I moved here three years ago is well documented. For a while now I've been thinking that I should read some of the literature relating to or coming from the Lone Star state as a route to understanding it better, and who knows, even cultivating some sympathy for it. Instead, in taking on Cormac McCarthy's Blood Meridian you might argue that I found confirmation of my existing prejudice.

Here in Austin, we're in the grip of an unprecedented spell of 100 degree-plus days. Tomorrow we will equal the record for number of 100 degree-plus days in a calendar year (sixty-nine), with a month of summer still remaining. Most of these 100 degree days have been consecutive - the thermometer hovers around 105 every afternoon. In this regard then Blood Meridian made perfect sense of Austin for me. Much of its three hundred and fifty pages are dedicated to magnificent descriptions of a landscape and climate that is utterly inhospitable, fit for neither man nor beast. The first half of the book takes place on the Texas-Mexico border and is filled with descriptive passages of a great barren emptiness in which no-one thrives and only scavengers survive. I don't mean to imply that Austin is full of scavengers, but certainly as an enterprise, you can see the city is flawed (Or at least, I can. Lots of people love it, apparently).

Blood Meridian is as difficult a book as I've read in a long time. I expected this - it's one reason I've put off reading McCarthy for so long, and for much the same reason I've long avoided picking-up Faulkner (with whom McCarthy is most frequently compared). I'm certainly not averse to difficult authors, but you have to be ready for them. You can't take this stuff lightly.

I was a hundred and eighty pages into Meridian before it stopped feeling like heavy lifting and clicked into gear for me. That being said, it's a book of such density that I don't imagine for a moment I've wrought from it even half of what's in there. I'm reminded of the Lars von Trier film, Breaking the Waves, which felt like literature to me when I saw it, and which I hoped to understand more fully through a second viewing. Problem is, I found the film so harrowing that I've been unable to return to it ever since.

Blood Meridian is famous for its brutality. Apparently there's a film adaptation in the works, and you can imagine Hollywood having a field day with the violence, with all the decapitation and exploding innards. One doubts that you'll get any understanding of the fact that the violence here is anything but gratuitous. What the book offers instead, is an indelible imagining of the American frontier a hundred and fifty years ago, told in a powerful, brilliantly stylized language. As a side-note, I wonder if perhaps this is the kind of effect Hemingway was after in attempting to convey the Castilian people in his Spanish Civil War novel For Whom The Bell Tolls?

Regardless, I do feel I have a more powerful (albeit, far from complete) idea of Texas now, and recognize something of what lies beneath the buildings and streets and freeways of Austin.

* * *

From Blood Meridian:

'They found the scouts hanging head downward from the limbs of a fireblacked paloverde tree. They were skewered through the cords of their heels with sharpened shuttles of green wood and they hung gray and naked above the dead ashes of the coals where they'd been roasted until their heads had charred and their brains bubbled in their skulls and steam sang from their noseholes. Their tongues were drawn out and held with sharpened sticks thrust through them and they had been docked of their ears and their torsos were sliced open with flints until the entrails hung down on their chests. Some of the men pushed forward with their knives and cut the bodies down and they left them there in the ashes.'

There's A Riot Goin On

2011-08-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

Photographer Unknown - citation requested.

'When considering the actual premise of "national security," one would have to look at a country which has descended into widespread internal chaos as being "insecure." For all the money spent on aggressive wars against ill-defined enemies in obscure parts of the world, the most dangerous threat to the actual physical safety of individuals within a country remains from their fellow citizens given a breakdown of social cohesion. It is a sign of dangerously confused priorities that defense spending is considered to be a budgetary holy grail which must be left untouched when discussing cuts to overall spending; but deep cuts to social services which directly affect the lives of millions of Americans are considered fair game. Nothing is more of a threat to the safety of Americans than a social system which will produce a generation of angry, disaffected young people and give rise to the types of scenes Britons are witnessing today.'

From a persuasive article on Salon.com about the recent riots in England. I'm in agreement with much that is said here - certainly that the government's austerity measures are barbaric and punish those who are already most familiar with austerity. And I've always been baffled as to enormous foreign aid and 'defense' spending when there's rank poverty and hardship within a nation's own borders (equally prescient in the US and the UK) - how do you build a society in Afghanistan when you can't maintain your own society at home?
And yet - Prime Minister Cameron is right when he points to a decline in moral character and poor parenting. I've seen it first hand. Where does the blame lay, exactly? I don't have easy answers - there aren't any. It's been a long, inexorable decline for Britain though, and my guess is that the foundations for the nation's current plight can be traced back all the way to the end of the Second World War (which may make it hard to explain Germany's current social hegemony and prosperity. Then again, perhaps not. I do feel national character lies at the heart of it).
Regardless, it may be time to abbreviate the nomenclature - it's hard to make a case for a Great Britain, just as it is for a United States.

Happy Foot.

2011-08-17T14:35:00.000-07:00

Nothing Compares: The Artist Formerly (and Currently) Known As Sinead O'Connor

2011-08-12T11:17:00.000-07:00

Live, Manchester, 2011

We know what to expect from the vapid entertainment culture we cultivate, and there's no surprise to the rippling affect around the internet resulting from People magazine's notably unflattering picture of forty-four year old Sinead O'Connor, published recently. The picture was taken at a music festival in Ireland, where she performed backing vocals for reggae artist Nattie Wailer. Certainly you could make a case about the sartorial choices - it is, of course, unheard of for a musician to show a lapse in self-awareness when it comes to style. But most of the snickering has to do with the fact that O'Connor is decidedly more portly than she was in her infamous youth. You can just sense the glee in certain quarters that she is no longer beautiful and youthful, that the arrogant, uncontrollable mouth from Ireland has got hers. She's a middle-aged frump, no better than the rest of us, after all...

Well, actually, she is better than most. Still.

The idea that a woman (in particular) or an artist (in general) owes it to us (their public) to age better, more gracefully than the rest of us is plainly ludicrous. But of course, there is a certain (wrongful) expectation of that in our culture - and it only goes to reinforce Sinead O'Connor's oft-displayed courage, her indomitability as an artist, that she continues to run the gauntlet of ridiculous perceptions and expectations of a largely foolish public.

I've seen O'Connor perform live a number of times. I have no hesitation in saying that she has produced some of the most electric moments I've ever seen in performance by any artist in any medium. Her body of recorded work may not be what we hoped it might turn out to be be back in 1991, but it is not insignificant by any means (I've little interest in reggae, but her 2005 album 'Throw Down Your Arms' is wonderful. I saw her perform the album at Webster Hall in NYC, backed by a magnificent, primarily Jamaican band. Patti Smith was seated beside me, leaning across the balcony, eyes closed, utterly enraptured).

More than anything, O'Connor has survived. She has survived childhood abuse, her own demons, a fragile mental health, and often vicious treatment from a media whose vitriol is frequently written in piss and just as enduring. And still she creates. Still she performs.

War - SNL

Her fear is palpable in this, the infamous SNL clip went some significant way to ruining her career. Afterwards she was slaughtered for bringing to light allegations of rampant child abuse in the Irish Catholic Church. Shamefully, few of her artistic contemporaries came to her defense, championed her right to protest. Less surprising is how few people recalled her once her allegations proved utterly founded.
Soon after, the ignorant masses annihilated her again for her refusal to have the national anthem played before a show in New Jersey - ignoring the fact that her message wasn't 'anti-American' but anti-nationalism. Likely those who booed her were the same who revered John Lennon for singing 'Imagine there's no countries/ I wonder if you can.' Less well reported was the fact that when she sold her Los Angeles home a year or two later, unable to take the strain of living in the US any more, she donated the proceeds of the sale to The Red Cross.

O'Connor is a mother to four children. She was also diagnosed as bi-polar seven years ago. Without question, part of her weight-gain is a result of anti-depressant medication. 'I actually kind of died and got born again as a result of taking the meds and having a chance to, you know, build a life,' she told Oprah Winfrey - outing herself as someone who suffered a debilitating form of mental illness, regardless of the unfortunate stigma that sometimes accompanies such revelations. Perhaps she should update the slogan on her t-shirt - 'This Weight May Have Saved My Life' - to address ugly commentators with a subtlety they'd understand?

O'Connor has surely said and done many foolish things. Unlike the rest of us, she's done it under great public scrutiny. I don't claim to be a fan of all her music, or much of her philosophy. But I can think of few artists who've refused to compromise as much as she has. She's paid for it at times with her career, and even with her very sanity. For her refusal to compromise, for her adherence to her own truth, for her perseverance and her strength in surviving, and most of all, for her stark, often beautiful art, I think she happens to be one of the more heroic figures in contemporary music and art. Long may she continue to perform, and more, find a peaceful life.

Troy - live 1988. Awesome - in the traditional sense, rather than then contemporary sense.

Further reading:
A piece I wrote on Sinead O'Connor in 2004

The Birds

2011-08-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

I was out location scouting yesterday beneath a split highway, South 290. Every few yards I'd come upon a bird in a late stage of decomposition. There were many dead birds - hit by traffic above and shunted over the freeway? I have no idea. If you do, I'd be curious to know why.

Jasper Johns vs Andy Warhol

2011-08-05T13:39:00.000-07:00

There's something slightly iconic about some of the older Target signs. I always think that Jasper Johns must see the logo and wonder where his residual fees are - although it's true he doesn't own exclusive copyright on 'target' images. I also wonder from time to time whether Andy Warhol didn't just sell the logo to the chain-store as a joke at Jasper John's expense...

Radar: What I've Been Reading (and Watching)

2011-08-03T14:02:00.000-07:00

Tree of Life

In the age of Twitter, it's no great surprise that a film like this will tax the attention span, test patience. But then, without being tested we fail to grow.

For my money, the visually stunning twenty minute prologue is too long (and the dinosaur scene fatally distracting), and I could have done without the 'heavenly' coda...but I would defend to the death director Terence Malick's right to include them. Even without them, the movie is as sumptuously shot as any other film I can call to mind. Malick's passion for the material resonates through every single still. Perhaps it's flawed as a work of art, but it's a remarkable work of art nonetheless.

Of course critics have a duty to judge a film on its own merits, yet given the shit that we're spoon-fed every day in film and television, I find it dismaying to read some of the vitriol aimed at Malick, and at his film. How many filmmakers today attempt such seriousness in their work?

The centre of this film is just beautiful, and the journey of the father, in particular, so deeply moving.

Blue Valentine

Actors are always talking about 'honesty' in their work, about being 'truthful.' By way of example, here is a film that's both honest and true, powered by brave, generous performances from Michelle Williams and Ryan Gosling. In many ways, it's as close to a Raymond Carver story as anything I've seen on film - certainly it's a hell of a lot better than Altman's 'Shortcuts,' based on several Carver stories.

Gosling's character - a man devoid of any particular ambition or talent, a man who's imagination stretches only as far as loving his wife and child but no further, and consequently a man who loses the love of his wife through his own inertia - is one I'm not sure I've seen portrayed before in quite this light. It's a very sympathetically written character, in a film that refuses to seek out more palatable romantic truths.

Galveston by Nic Pizzolatto

I stumbled upon Dennis Lehane's review of 'Galveston' in the NY Times Book Review. Lehane compared it favourably with the noir work of Denis Johnson and so, wanting an easy read for a weekend away, I made a rare foray into genre fiction: except that like the work of Raymond Chandler (whose books I love) and Dashiell Hammett, Nic Pizzolatto's 'Galveston' defies the easy 'genre' label.

Galveston has the mandatory page-turning plot, but it's also marked by taut, evocative language that instills the novel with a steady, pulsing dread. It's deeply atmospheric - a relatively small portion of the novel actually takes place in Galveston, yet I feel I have a good idea of how the town looks and smells - and a climactic scene of violence reverberated with me all through my sleep the night I put the book to bed.

Beats Rhymes & Life: The Travels of a Tribe Called Quest

Is it a great documentary? No. But for more than two-thirds of the film, it works. And perhaps the film's denouement - the inevitable egotistic squabbles of a great band who once preached 'Unity' - made it difficult to provide a more satisfying ending. More imaginative concert footage wouldn't have hurt, but then, the band's last tour was a sorrowful thing anyway. The vibe had long gone and the only thing left to play for was the loot. What does it amount to? One guy was more ambitious, more 'egotistical' than the other. One wanted it more (and was better equipped for the journey) than the other, this from the very beginning.

The Tribe, then...one truly great album (The Low End Theory). Two or three solid albums. It's enough, isn't it?

Texas Cloudbusting

2011-07-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

For someone who can be a bit of a navel gazer, I take great pleasure from looking up to the sky.

Hotel Vegas, Eastside Austin

2011-07-19T10:04:00.001-07:00

Never 20

2011-07-18T15:39:00.000-07:00

Bastrop, Texas.

Because let's face it, 20 is just reckless.

Blue Skies: On Becoming a Father

2011-07-17T15:42:00.000-07:00

Miller Lowell.... born at 2:41 pm, on July 12

   Last Monday morning, I wrote a letter to English author Geoff Dyer, whose most recent book, Otherwise Known as the Human Condition I reviewed recently for The Austin American Statesman. In the letter, I discussed a novel that I had worked on a little over a decade ago, but failed to complete. The novel's title was to be Bluer Skies, and its title was drawn from a Scott Fitzgerald quote that I intended to use as the book's epigraph:

   'I was never disposed to accept the present but always striving to change it, better it, or even sometimes destroy it. There were always far horizons that were more golden, bluer skies somewhere.'

   The novel was meant to portray a character, a type, who fails to find happiness or fulfill his human potential, in part because he always has his eye on some imaginary future life and fails to recognize the value of the present. Here was a 'type' I obviously felt a certain affinity with. It was a little strange to write about this book to Dyer, for it's a book I haven't thought much about in many years - even though I spent three years of my life working on it. Let's face it, another novel has failed and disappeared in the interim... an ocean of water lies under the bridge. That particular book is a distant part of my past.

   *

   A few hours after I'd finished the letter, my wife went into labour. This is our first baby, and let me tell you, they don't call it 'labour' for nothing. There were approximately seventeen hours of heavy lifting on my wife's part that went into this. Along the way, three different nurses helped guide us. One of them wore a set of grey scrubs made by 'Grey's Anatomy' - presumably a reference to the the TV series, by way of the medical book.
   I mention scrubs for a reason. Towards the end of labour, the lead doctor arrived to deliver the baby. By now we were past the heavy contractions, shifting towards the final 'push.' It's a time that is ripe with tension, literally pregnant with impending joy. It's when everyone hunkers down for the final effort. I stood at my wife's side, providing what support that I could (not much), and as I looked at the doctor guiding her, I noticed the brand label of her scrubs sewn into the left breast of her jacket: Blue Sky. I'm not a particularly superstitious person, but I recognized in this an omen. I felt certain then that my wife and baby would emerge from the trauma of birth healthy and well, that we had passed the most difficult hours of labour. It was all going to be ok.
   Time stands still sometimes.
   In a few fleeting moments, not only did I understand that everything would turn out well with the birth, but I was drawn to consider my note to Geoff Dyer earlier in the day. In that moment I came to recognize that there will always be distant horizons to chase, but I had reached my bluer skies. Indeed, blue sky was all about me.
   My journey has taken me first across continents, back and forth across coasts, and now into the American heartland. There is nothing in my present to 'change, better or destroy.' My present is exactly what I want it to be. The future can wait - and there'll be three of us coming to grasp it.


   Blue skies - deep in the heart of Texas.

The Queen is Dead - still.

2011-07-08T12:31:00.000-07:00

My first job after leaving school was at a commercial photo lab in Manchester. Most of the work was dreary stuff, but Stephen Wright and Kevin Cummings, responsible for some of the most iconic photography of Manchester music artists of that time, occasionally dropped off work with us - highlights of any given day. At the lab we worked on images for the album sleeve on Strangeways Here We Come, for example, and Wright explained that the back cover of Morrissey's debut solo album, Viva Hate, was to be a cropped section (sky only) of a shot of Morrissey at the gravestone of George Formby.

When I went home to Manchester this spring, I researched a (hopefully) forthcoming travel piece on Manchester and its music, and shot some images to go along with the article. The colour image above is from a series taken outside Salford Lads Club.

EMD.

2011-07-05T11:03:00.000-07:00

Erin McReynolds Davis, Austin, TX

My friend Erin needed an author portrait on short notice, for upcoming pieces in literary magazines. This is what I came up with - though I think she selected a different image from the same series (she's contrary like that).

The last piece she published appeared in The North American Review. Another story can be found here, at literary quarterly r.kv.r.y: http://www.rkvry.com/essays/200-erin-mcreynolds

Cash Cow: More Great Juxtapositions From The Newsstand

2011-07-01T12:01:00.000-07:00

Diana at fifty? I'm never quite sure why people in England would be interested...but in Texas? But, I suppose, where there's money to be made...

Who wouldn't want to subscribe to 'Turkey and Turkey Hunting'?

Highway 10.

2011-06-29T13:18:00.001-07:00

Highway 10, west. Texas.

The Maternity Files - Day 7

2011-06-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

37 weeks.

And so ends a week of maternity shots with this, a one year wedding anniversary portrait. Our baby is due any time over the next couple of weeks, but in the meantime, normal, more varied blog service will resume.

Somewhat impressively, I think, I avoided using the title 'From Here To Maternity' all week long. I really wanted to - I have lapses in taste like that occasionally. Still, I held strong.

As a reminder, if you're in the market for maternity/baby portraits, I'm available.

The Maternity Files: Day 6

2011-06-27T09:04:00.000-07:00

Week 35 (-ish).

Maternity Files: Day 5

2011-06-26T18:23:00.000-07:00

Molly, black & white.

Maternity Files: Day 4

2011-06-25T10:00:00.000-07:00

22 weeks.

This one's a re-post, for those keeping score at home.

The Maternity Files: Day 3

2011-06-24T12:17:00.000-07:00

7.5 months.

This was actually a test shot for a nude image. I'm not posting the nude here, but I think this works quite nicely anyway...

The Maternity Files: Day 2

2011-06-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

Molly, shot in natural light...

The Maternity Files: Day 1

2011-06-22T08:26:00.000-07:00

Sometime over the next 2-3 weeks, I expect to become a father for the first time. Naturally, I've recorded developments i.e. my wife's growing belly, over the past few months. Doing so has led to me being asked to shoot some domestic portraits - of children, mothers-to-be, etc - something I expect I might explore with increasing frequency over the next few months. Well, a man has to clothe his kid somehow, right?

Over the next few days, I'll share a few maternity images - notably of my lovely, though notoriously camera-shy wife. The image above was shot at approximately 5 - 6 months of her pregnancy.

What I'm Reading: George, Being George.

2011-06-21T22:30:00.000-07:00

Over the course of a couple of days last week I read George, Being George, an oral history of George Plimpton - writer, long-time editor of The Paris Review, bon vivant. Biographies are partly responsible for where I've ended up - which is to say, in Los Angeles, and New York, and for now, in Austin. I say this because for me, biographies (of writers, artists, film stars, musicians, athletes) have served as inspiration, and at times, as a reminder of the possibility - indeed the necessity, of living 'a life less ordinary.' I don't mean to imply that the life I've led, or lead now, is extraordinary, the stuff of world renown - though on certain days I can imagine the book my story might contain. Indeed, the life I live at the moment is quieter, and in many ways, more 'ordinary' - outwardly, anyway - than at any time since I was a youth, growing up in Manchester. But reading a book like this reminds one of the possibilities of life, of the importance of cultivating valuable friendships, and of surrounding oneself with people of great vitality. Few people live a life that is forever vibrant, filled with charm (you could make a good case that George Plimpton came pretty close to doing so), but there's something to be said for a story that reminds you to take your chance at doing so, makes it seem like it might even be possible, if only for an afternoon or two.

Re-make, Re-model

2011-06-16T11:09:00.000-07:00

Blue Zen.

ZenobiaTaylor. Re-work of a photograph taken earlier this year.

This American Life 2

2011-06-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

'Special Collector's Issue' - more from the news stand. Austin Tx.

This American Life

2011-06-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Magazine stand, Austin, TX

What I'm Reading: A Visit From The Goon Squad

2011-06-13T11:18:00.000-07:00

It won the Pulitzer Prize for fiction last year. It appeared on the New York Times 10 Best Books 2010 list. In The Morning News Tournament of Books, it saw off Franzen's Freedom in the final. My friend Thomas Yagoda is listed in the acknowledgments for his helpful counseling and described it to me as 'a damn good book.' My wife liked it a lot, and told me I would too. I've heard nary a bad word about it.

Why then, did this book just not do it for me?

I'd read an earlier book by Egan, Look At Me, and was left with a similar feeling after finishing that: essentially, 'OK...so?' With that book I felt I had to have missed something. With this one, I'm less convinced that's the case. The much discussed PowerPoint chapter in Goon Squad is clever, yes. The last chapter, set in the near future is ok enough - it offers a chapter's worth of ideas on communication, similar to those Gary Shteyngart covered more fully in his novel Super Sad True Love Story (which, incidentally, was my least favourite book of his; pattern emerging?). But really - this is considered a benchmark novel today? There's barely a surprising sentence - or character, for that matter - in the entire book. The prose is clean and efficient, but in no way remarkable. The timeline leaps back and forth, and for a book that is largely set in or around the music industry, I felt the music references, as they relate to the timeline, were very unconvincing.

As I've said, this book was compared to Freedom in various book discussions and forums. For what it's worth, I come down on the side of Freedom, since it's a far more ambitious book. A better comparison, though, would be Colum McCann's Let The Great World Spin. McCann's is a vastly superior book - poetic, deeply moving, full of voices and stories we haven't heard before...

Hotel Havana

2011-06-08T07:35:00.000-07:00

San Antonio, Texas, has precious little to recommend it. I've visited a couple of times now, and it's like The Land That Time Forgot. Astonishingly, it's the seventh most heavily populated city in the US, ahead of both Dallas and San Francisco, for example. There are many fine buildings downtown, yet the place is soul-less. It's a place that's ripe for reclamation - maybe someone should give Liz Lambert a few million dollars and put her in charge of things.

Last year, Lambert renovated the Hotel Havana, next to the Fire Department building downtown, and having visited last weekend, I'd have to say that once again, she's created a thing of beauty - a place with oodles of character and charm.

Hotel Havana follows on the heels of Hotel San Jose (Austin) and St Cecilia (also in Austin....it's named for the patron saint of music and poetry. More upscale than her other ventures, this one is the hide-out of choice for traveling musicians - wealthy ones). Once again here, she's created a place of elegance, style, and most significantly, individuality.

She also renovated a hotel in Marfa, six hours outside of Austin in the middle of nowhere. She's since sold that place (Thunderbird Hotel), and opened a hip airstream trailer park there instead (El Cosmico).

Austin, of course, is close to nowhere you'd particularly want to visit. Marfa has an element of charm, but it's a small, artsy town that's not only six hours away, but pretty much closed Sunday through Thursday. I've often wished there were somewhere closer to retreat for a weekend - somewhere to read, write, replenish. Hotel Havana has the exact feel you might wish for...a place to shut the world out, stay inside, have breakfast in bed, work, think, and at night, sip on a Manhattan in the bar buried deep in the basement. A place for a lost - or a found - weekend.

Paul Scholes: Artist (no longer) at Work.

2011-06-07T10:28:00.000-07:00

Photo © SkySports

It's been a tough week to be a Manchester United fan - first a loss in the Champions League Final to a magnificent Barcelona team, and then Paul Scholes calls time on his career. Unquestionably, the team will take longer to recover from the latter than the former.

I don't typically indulge myself in football commentary on here, but Scholes is a special case. No player of the past twenty-five years has given me more pleasure. Furthermore, Scholes is almost unique in contemporary sports in his attitude towards his work. Here is an athlete who ignored personal accolades, actively disdained media attention, indeed, one who never even had an agent, choosing instead to negotiate his own contracts. There is a Paul Scholes t-shirt that you can buy in Manchester that accurately conveys his philosophy: 'Get up. Go to work. Play the game. Get Showered. Go Home.'

Unlike, say, David Beckham, Scholes's idea of a public appearance is sitting in the stands of his local, low-tier club Oldham Athletic, watching the game with his kids - anonymously, if possible. Invariably, having won a 'Man of the Match' award on TV, he would send a team-mate to accept the award and conduct the mandatory post-game interview - 'He's already in his car, on his way home,' Rio Ferdinand said on one occasion.

Scholes was born in Salford, not far from United's Old Trafford stadium. By any stretch, he's a working class hero. Still, for all the rare contrary delights of his nature, it is the artistry of his football which brought such joy. He scored 150 goals for United, at least a couple of which are widely considered amongst the best four or five goals of the Premier League era. But beyond the goals, he possessed extraordinary vision on a football field, allied to a glorious ability to pass the ball. Scholes has consistently made passes during a game that brought more joy and wonder than the goals that may ultimately have earned a victory. Xavi and Iniesta who play similar positions in the all-conquering Barcelona team, both rate him as their closest peer. At 36 though, Scholes is calling it quits, bowing out before time conquers his game. He made his announcement simply, through the club, without the fanfare of a press conference: 'I'm not a man of many words, but I can honestly say that playing football is all I've ever wanted to do.'

How it showed. Scholes always let his football do the talking. In doing so, he spoke beautifully.

Technical brilliance - vs Aston Villa

Winning goal vs Barcelona, Champions League semi-final 2008

Gil Scott Heron

2011-05-31T09:09:00.000-07:00

'The way you get to know yourself is by the expressions on other people’s faces, because that’s the only thing that you can see, unless you carry a mirror about.' Gil Scott Heron: April 1 1949 - May 27 2011

Read more http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2010/08/09/100809fa_fact_wilkinson#ixzz1Nwlfx5pK

The Underground

2011-05-31T07:53:00.000-07:00

A selection of images from Molly Macindoe's recently published book, 'Out of Order,' appears in The Guardian newspaper. Here's the introduction to the first image (not the one above):

In the summer of 1997, Molly Macindoe was taken to her first rave with a friend connected to the Crossbones sound system. Immediately hooked, she spent the next decade documenting the leading exponents of the free party scene and their network of friends as they travelled around scouring cities for derelict buildings to turn into spontaneous raves lasting for days. One rave in this Hackney building lasted for 13 weeks.

Full gallery/article here: Soundsystem Parties

On Mapplethorpe

2011-05-27T09:22:00.000-07:00

Patti Smith, 1976. © Robert Mapplethorpe

A further thought upon finishing Just Kids by Patti Smith. A key element to the Mapplethorpe story is this: that without Sam Wagstaff, Mapplethorpe may have been little more than a significant footnote in Patti Smith's story. Wagstaff was Mapplethorpe's benefactor, a wealthy art collector who became the most important collector of photographic art of his time. He enabled Mapplethorpe as a photographer.

I raise this point with only this in mind: having described Smith's book as one of the great accounts of becoming an artist, and what it is to be an artist, it's worth acknowledging the part that money played in at least one half of this particular story. Without Wagstaff, Mapplethorpe would still have been an artist - but whether he'd have been a successful artist, whether we'd have heard of him in his own right, free of the Smith/Mapplethorpe mythology is questionable. Of course, you can argue that Mapplethorpe's social climbing was a contributing factor in his art - that he made the meeting with Wagstaff happen, and the fact that they fell in love, inspired one another, was due in some part to Mapplethrope's creative instinct. But it doesn't alter this fact: that if he'd never met Wagstaff, Mapplethorpe would likely have been just another side-long story of talent with unfulfilled dreams.

The image above may be my favourite Mapplethorpe portrait. I have mixed feelings about his portraits. Typically they're cold and don't reveal much about their subjects. This one has heat to it though.

Cloudbusting

2011-05-24T13:34:00.000-07:00

Dripping Springs, TX

What I'm Reading: Just Kids by Patti Smith

2011-05-23T08:10:00.000-07:00

It's no easy thing to write of innocence, long after innocence is gone. Patti Smith's memoir of her early life, and of her deeply spiritual relationship with Robert Mapplethorpe, won a National Book Award last year, and it accomplishes this with enormous subtlety and grace.

For me, what makes Just Kids so remarkable is the absence of self-aggrandizement, it's relating of life simply as it was, without any pretense of wisdom or judgment arrived at through hindsight. More than anything, it describes the journey of two artists in pursuit of their talent... and specifically, it illuminates the fact that while art may be what results from devotion to one's craft, it's possible - intrinsic, in fact - to be an artist long before you've found your means of expression. I can think of few works that describe the road to artistic self-discovery so well.

Bob Dylan set the recent trend for rock musician memoirs (beside Smith's book, Keith Richards Life was well also received of course, but a mass of less interesting books, by lesser talents - Steven Tyler comes to mind - arrive weekly, it would seem). Smith is an avowed devotee of Dylan, and given her poetic/ mystic leanings, I anticipated a similar book from her, one that would play with structure and allusive imagery. For twenty pages I was surprised, confounded even, by the simplicity of the prose. This, it turned out, was the book's strength - and my misreading. And of course, the writing isn't simple - it's seamless instead, which is far from the same thing. It's a book filled with tenderness, not only for Mapplethorpe, but for Smith's own youth, for an era, and for the remarkable characters who somehow populated Smith's life (see brief, delicate portraits of Sam Shepard and Jim Carroll, for example). It's a book that's particularly notable for one of the rarest qualities in memoir, or indeed, in arts and entertainment in general - humility.

(photographer unknown)

Olivia: Foie Gras

2011-05-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

Foie Gras, Olivia restaurant, Austin, TX.

Blonde Twilight

2011-05-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

Anna, Los Angeles

2011-05-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

Old-skool fashion shot, from the last days of film - this image was taken on slide film and cross-processed (C41).

Flo(o)ssie.

2011-05-16T09:45:00.000-07:00

Kate Moss, by Mario Testino.

This image is one of eleven in a portfolio for sale ($75,000, set) at NYC gallery Danziger Projects. I'll settle for this one by itself, please.

Chicharito...

2011-05-13T12:50:00.000-07:00

Am alternative title for this post might have been, 'The Indulgence of Women.'

'Chicharito' translates from Spanish as 'Little Pea.' It happens to be the nickname of Manchester United's wunderkind striker, Javier Hernandez. Hernandez is only 22 years old. He signed for Man U at the beginning of last year, and before doing so, he was barely known outside his home town. He's obviously carried the nickname since he was a baby...

Chicharito has made an enormous impact at Man U - I saw him score in his first game, in Houston last year, and most recently, against Everton when I was home in Manchester and took my Mum to a game. There are several notable things about Javier Hernandez, outside of his phenomenal goal rate, but first and foremost, for me anyway, is the joy with which he plays the game. He's that rare sportsman - humble, modest and clearly in love with the game itself, rather than with the fame and material rewards it brings.

How does this tie-in the photograph above? Because my dear, sweet, indulgent wife, began referring to the baby growing in her belly as 'Chicharito' almost as soon we learned she was pregnant. And make no mistake, I know it's an indulgence! Hernandez had only played a few games for United at the time. His reputation has grown in direct relation to the size of her belly, it would seem. But I'm drawn to consider the way men, if they're lucky, as I am, are indulged in the simplest yet most meaningful of ways by their partner...

(No sleeping pregnant women were compromised in the making of this photo)

What I'm Reading: Reading My Father by Alexandra Styron

2011-05-10T15:35:00.000-07:00

To be a truly great artist, or performer, or athlete, to maximize your potential, to drain every last drop of talent from your being, your chosen vocation must come first, before all else - love, family, health, money. Your 'career' must be the singular love of your life. Anything else is mere dressing. I've long believed this. Art of the highest order demands not only inordinate sacrifice, but unreasonable selfishness. It's why so many people who operate at the highest altitudes of their craft leave behind them trails of destruction in their personal lives. I don't mean to over romanticize it, 'the artist's way.' But the number of healthy, happy families borne of the very greatest artists are few. If you have examples, I'd be curious to hear them (I was about to suggest Nabakov, and his wife Vera, as an example. But then I thought of the unavoidable strain of paedophilia that runs throughout his work, which at a certain point, has to elicit suspicion).

Alexandra Styron's memoir of living with a difficult father tells of an unhappy relationship, but does so in a clear-sighted way that is far from vengeful, as some such memoirs tend to be. It's a book that doesn't propose to have all the answers - clearly, it's an exploration, a search for the man her father was, and answers as to why he proved so difficult and ugly, even before he crashed hard on the obliterating rocks of depression. In some ways, the book represents a daughter's journey in trying to find a way to love her father, in spite of the havoc he reeked upon his family. An understated detail towards the end of the book suggests that Alexandra, the youngest of Styron's children, reconciled a complicated love for her father with all the feelings of hate she grew up with, even into adulthood: she named her first born William, after her father.

One more thing. The book mentions that Styron's books have never been received in England with the same praise they've received in the States. One reason suggested here is that Styron's Southern voice is too florid for English tastes. I find this interesting, only because of my reaction to Sophie's Choice when I read it a few years ago...that despite the beauty and sorrow of the books denouement, as a whole, it read overly sentimentalized to me. I wasn't always comfortable with the prose. My Englishness, perhaps?

Manchester Is My Heaven

2011-05-09T08:43:00.000-07:00

Stretford End, Old Trafford, home of Manchester United.

Since I moved to Texas, I've felt estranged from England and its culture in a way I rarely did when I lived in Los Angeles and New York. For this reason perhaps, my attachment to football, and to my home team specifically - Manchester United - has never been greater. It helps that I can watch every game on TV, even here - like yesterdays magnificent deconstruction of Chelsea, which took us within touching distance of a record 19th English championship.

David Hockney's Mother

2011-05-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

Years ago, when I lived in Los Angeles and my mother first came to visit, she expressed mystification over the laundry habits of Angeleno's. In a city with such beautiful weather, why, she wondered, does no-one hang there washing on a line to dry?

A couple of years later, I watched a documentary on the great English artist David Hockney. Hockney was raised in Bradford, a gritty, working-class city less than an hour north of Manchester. Hockney has made Los Angeles his home for many years, and in the documentary, he said that his mother, upon visiting LA, wanted to know the same thing as my mother - why no washing lines? Such then, are the concerns of a certain generation of working-class women.

A couple of weeks ago, home in Manchester, the newspapers - and the public at large - were celebrating 'the hottest Easter in 100 years...sunnier than Los Angeles, dryer than Madrid!' Good then, to see that my mother was taking advantage of the weather, hanging her laundry out to dry.

Colourful Pubs I Have Known

2011-05-04T11:43:00.001-07:00

Peveril of the Peak, Manchester.

How Does Your Garden Grow?

2011-05-03T13:13:00.000-07:00

Garage, Manchester, UK.

Spring, Manchester.

2011-04-30T12:50:00.001-07:00

Calm Before The Storm

2011-04-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

Nova Scotia

The Airborne Toxic Event

2011-04-28T11:23:00.000-07:00

I flew into Austin yesterday, after a week in England. My flight was diverted four hundred miles due to severe weather. Looking through the aircraft window there were huge clouds visible below us, coiled like gnarled fists. Down on the ground, it was more severe than we knew. My flight landed shortly before dusk, and driving home the sky was thick and aglow, a result of wild fires raging across Texas.

As the sun set, the cloud formations appeared almost apocalyptic.

Bliss Lounge

2011-04-14T08:17:00.001-07:00

Out of Gas

2011-04-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

Johnson City, TX.

Otherwise Known A The Human Condition

2011-04-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

My review of Geoff Dyer's new book appeared in The Austin American Statesman yesterday. I'm a great admirer of Dyer, and it pains me a little to feel that I've failed to do his work justice. Nonetheless, I have to say that's how I feel about this piece. Having just re-read it, I think it lacks both sharpness and elegance. I was only given eight hundred words to work with, and it may be that it's one of those occasions when eight hundred words simply isn't enough to convey what you want to say. Anyway. Maybe I'll look more fondly upon it later, though I suspect not.

Review: Otherwise Known As The Human Condition

Born To Junk

2011-03-30T07:22:00.001-07:00

Round Top, Texas.

Junk Shopping: Cars

2011-03-29T13:36:00.000-07:00

Rear, Cadillac: $1325

Grill, Ford: $125

Eighteen.

2011-03-26T21:48:00.000-07:00

i-phone, Austin.

Summer arrives in March in Austin.

We were walking around the lake downtown, week day afternoon. We crossed a bridge, the one with a sign that says ' No jumping in the water,' and group of lads with pale skin and scruffy beards were taking turns climbing over the handrail and jumping into the water. At the far end of the bridge the kid in the photo above was clambering out of the water, a ridiculous grin spread across his features. I noticed his shorts, bearing the Manchester United insignia. 'Nice shorts,' I said. 'Thanks. Are you British? Where are you from?' 'I'm from Manchester,' I said. 'Fucking brilliant. Come here. Let me show you something.' For whatever reason, we followed, curious as to what he had to show us. Along the way - about 25 yards distance - he gave us a brief life history, told us how he'd been born in Germany yet had dual citizenship, and how he'd had to pass a test at age seven to keep the dual citizenship. He was eighteen, he said, and now he could go 'wherever I fucking want.' His accent was unplaceable - you might have thought him British.

What he'd wanted to show us was the swing he's hooked up, casting a rope over a high branch. His friends - by all appearances a bunch of stoners at a loose end - were amazed by the feat of climbing he'd managed, enabling him to cast the rope. The kid grabbed the handle at the end of the rope, leapt out over the water and flipped upside down, holding on to the handle with the back of his legs as though it were a trapeze. I didn't have my phone out, missed that pass...but then he turned upright, and I took this picture moments before he let go, plummeted into the water. 'Next time, bring some waterproof shorts,' he said. He was eighteen and having a fine time.

Justin

2011-03-17T09:04:00.000-07:00

My friend Justin, who celebrated his birthday yesterday. We won't mention numbers..

At The Fights: American Writers on Boxing

2011-03-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

The Austin American Statesman did a tremendous job in its print edition with my review of At The Fights: American Writers On Boxing. The review occupied a wide birth on the centre pages of the Sunday books section, and featured a couple of large, well chosen images. The online version doesn't have the same visual impact, but the words are all the same.

http://www.statesman.com/life/books/anthology-offers-a-peek-into-the-dark-corners-1319162.html

22 Weeks.

2011-03-13T20:26:00.000-07:00

Finding the Plot: Harlot's Ghost, by Norman Mailer

2011-02-25T08:32:00.000-08:00

Character time-line for Norman Mailer's huge novel, 'Harlot's Ghost' - on display at The Harry Ransom Centre, Austin, TX.

Radiohead: A Few Thoughts on Vanity (And Lack Thereof)

2011-02-23T08:16:00.000-08:00

The Fellini-esque video to Lotus Flower, by Radiohead, is an astonishment. It's achingly beautiful, and displays a noble lack of personal vanity. It's a rare artist who can cast aside such vanity. It's a form of courage that invariably results in a deeper, richer experience for the audience, be it here, in a music video, or in the work of an author of literary fiction.

By extension, the video for Lotus Flower also reinforces the philosophy of a band that, more than any other I can call to mind, has pursued its own creative path, regardless of the pressures brought to bear by outside forces. After OK Computer, Radiohead could have become anything they wanted, and what they chose was to be a band who explored their own curiosities, leaving The Music Game to others. At times, the insular nature of their work has risked alienating them from their audience. So be it. It's their journey, not ours - we're lucky to be along for the ride.

Baby Bump.

2011-02-22T08:07:00.000-08:00

She has an aversion to being photographed...but this, her pregnancy, is one occasion on which she'll submit to being recorded. The reason the picture appears here is because of the gorgeous colour - notably, the blues, and the skin in the shadows beneath her jaw. All natural, untouched. I'm guessing she won't object this time around...

Hoop Dreams: Moonshot

2011-02-21T17:54:00.000-08:00

Texas Lit.

2011-02-19T12:23:00.000-08:00

Austin's Hottest Chef - Taff Mayberry

2011-02-18T12:24:00.000-08:00

Taff Mayberry portrait - as used by Eater.com in their 'Hottest Chef' contest. Taff won the Austin round, and is one of seven contestants up for the national 'award.'

Honeybears

2011-02-04T11:00:00.000-08:00

Black Joe Lewis and the Honeybears

Shreveport, Louisiana

Somewhere Between Thought and Expression

2011-02-02T12:38:00.000-08:00

Zen.

Chef Andrew Francisco Pt 2

2011-01-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

Chef Andrew Francisco

2011-01-27T23:39:00.000-08:00

Chef Andrew Francisco, Olivia Restaurant (for Bread and Butter PR)

Once Was Friendly

2011-01-21T11:41:00.000-08:00

My Well-Spent Youth.

2011-01-18T13:51:00.000-08:00

A reminder of childhood days...

Albeit a long way from home - this, a Texas dusk.

Was there a better way to spend one's childhood than running towards twilight with a football? If there was, I didn't find it.

(Pics via iphone)

I'm Beginning To See The Light.

2011-01-17T16:11:00.000-08:00

Meat-Pit

2011-01-14T13:03:00.000-08:00

Salt Lick BBQ, Dripping Springs, Tx. (iphone)

Food-Trailers

2011-01-12T11:00:00.000-08:00

Food Trailers, East 6th St, Austin

Frank Lloyd Wright's 'Hollyhock House'

2011-01-10T13:12:00.000-08:00

Hollyhock House, designed by Frank Lloyd Wright, has been named one of the most significant structures of the 20th century by The American Institute of Architects and achieved National Historic Landmark recognition in 1997. It sits at the top of a hill in East Hollywood and affords a glorious panoramic view of the city. The building itself is in poor shape, however. The City of Los Angeles Department of Cultural Affairs owns it now, and so far as I was able to see recently, restoration efforts are either stalled or going poorly....

Further reading: http://hollyhockhouse.net/

Larchmont.

2011-01-09T14:39:00.000-08:00

Larchmont Village, Los Angeles